I am grateful for my Best Friend – after over 20+ years, I feel like I can tell her anything, trust her with all my heart, and know that no matter what, she will always be there to listen and support me. I can only wish that each of my kids has that one friend who has been as special and instrumental in their lives like she has been to me. I was able to spend quality time with her – something I wish we had more time to do – and it was so therapeutic, so good for my soul. :)
On most days, I am the “YES woman” – hardly ever would you hear me say NO to anyone in my family, especially my kids, or my friends, or my co-workers. But in recent weeks, I have been feeling overextended and run down. At times, I have this FOMO thing (Fear Of Missing Out) when it comes to anything having to do with my kids. Today, my Hubby offered to take our 5 year old and her older sister to the Bridgit Mendler concert, when it was me originally. His intentions are good – he wanted me to rest after surviving the JB concert a few days prior. I have to accept these offers like they’re gifts, and know that sometimes I need to say no and take care of myself, regroup, refocus and just rest.
Here’s what I threw together yesterday – I was trying to make use of some ingredients I had on hand, as well as some leftovers (aka carne asada – LOL).
Ciabatta bread with olive oil and salt
Topped with goat cheese, prosciutto, grape tomatoes, and carne asada – roasted in the oven for 30 minutes
Spaghetti pan-fried with bacon fat (oh yeah), scrambled eggs, and parmesan cheese sprinkled on top. Finished with roasted zucchini slices and grape tomatoes. Served with balsamic vinegar on the side.
Do you ever feel bored? Feel like you need a change? Need to feel inspired? Well, that was me at about 2:30pm yesterday. I was incredibly exhausted and feeling uninspired – not because I’m not surrounded by inspiration but I wasn’t tapping INTO my sources of inspiration. Enough is enough – I needed to do something different and feeling tired was not an excuse! It was beautiful San Diego weather for crying out loud – I needed to honor that somehow, so I decided to surprise my Hubby (and myself) with a nice, light and fancy dinner in our patio.
Recently on a date night, we were blown away by a brussel sprouts appetizer! Never in my wildest dreams did I think brussel sprouts would blow my mind. But they did! So I decided to challenge myself and make a copycat of that healthy, delicious appetizer. A little bit of olive oil, salt, pepper, bacon fat (oh yeah) and voila after about 30 minutes of roasting! Success, I thought, and so did my Hubby :)
The next part of my fancy dinner was inspired by me craving a good crostini or bruschetta. I improvised on this one – no fig jam, so I replaced with apricot and it worked just beautifully. I also didn’t feel like buying a pot of basil leaves, so instead I bought a bag of arugula – again, beautiful and delicious!
To make dinner even fancier, I bought a bottle of red wine. Perfection. Sometimes, it’s fun to be spontaneous, even when I’m tired. ;-)
A few years ago, when Ella was only 2 (and already a huge JB fan), she had the opportunity to attend his concert. Unfortunately, she was feeling under the weather and I just didn’t think she was well enough, or even old enough, to enter into the pandemonium that is known to all as “Bieber Fever”.
I thought maybe she’ll grow out of her love for Justin Bieber, perhaps she will like a new artist…but no. She has been a loyal fan for the past 3 or so years! So I decided to make it a goal for myself to take her to a Justin Bieber concert and make this a special memory for her.
It happened last Saturday – I seriously stayed home all day to save all my energy for what we were getting ourselves into that night. From the moment she opened the surprise package with the tickets inside to the moment JB himself stepped onto the stage, she was ecstatic, and I found myself just watching the excitement on her face and really relishing that moment.
Those who know me know that music is my therapy. When I run out of ways and words to express myself, I end up putting on my headphones to tune out the world and fill my head with music. Many times, I would hear the perfect song with the perfect lyrics, that express how I was feeling at that very moment in time.
I am a huge Corinne Bailey Rae fan – I dedicate her song “Butterfly” to my eldest daughter who I love very much. When I heard this song, the lyrics were so sweet and so touching, that I almost started crying at my desk (I know, hot mess). I pray that one day she can listen to this song and be reminded of her Dad and me, and how much we love her. She recently graduated from high school so it’s been a very emotional time, and I’ve been thinking about her a lot. This one is for you, Nini <3
Sadly, this reminds me of someone to the T. Unbelievable.
10. “I’m living the life I’ve always wanted…or am I? I don’t know, I’m drunk again, so I really don’t know my own reality.”
9. “Oh, I didn’t get your Dad’s text or email about your event. I was too busy posting about my inebriated adventures on Facebook. I’ll check it later.”
8. “Yeah, I’m going to your game. My ride to the club is one of your teammate’s parents, and we’re carpooling. Kill two birds…”
7. “Honey, I can’t make it to your game today. I’m getting myself a sweet tattoo today – but good luck!”
6. “You need money for your field trip? I don’t have any money right now.” (said while unloading a bag filled with beer and wine with new tattoo exposed)
5. “This is a bad report card and yes, you can sleep over at your friend’s house.”
4. “I know my boyfriend told you to ‘shut up’ but I want you to have thick skin.”
3. “I should really discipline you but in all honesty, I’m just not a micromanager.”
2. “Hi kids – I missed you guys this weekend. So glad you’re home. I left the dishes in the sink for you guys to take care of – we had a big party this weekend while you were gone!”
1. “Listen, when your Dad and I were married, it was because of me that he spent so much time with you. I would tell him to take you out for ice cream because I had to come home and change for the club and just couldn’t bear hearing you kids begging for me to stay home. It made me feel guilty and I just didn’t want to deal with that.”
Sometimes, thinking about what others feel about you and oppositely, thinking about how what you say or feel will affect others can be exhausting. Here’s a piece of inspiration from one of my favorite groups, Katchafire. It speaks to the current events in my life right now.
I am so grateful to have the same 3 wonderful friends who have been there with me through teenage years to adult years, heartaches, happiness, uncertainty, career changes, marriage, and motherhood. They are amazing women and every time we get together we relive our memories, listen to each other’s stories, and support each other through whatever stressors are in our life at the moment. Today, I was reminded of just how special these ladies are to me and my family. The enormous amount of support, love and understanding I felt from them today filled my heart. I am lucky and I do not take these friendships for granted. I only pray and hope that each of my kids will be blessed with the same gift of love, loyalty and friendship. <3